CT Scan and Surgery!

before surgery(excuse my puffy face
 i had been crying all morning)

right before surgery

Right after his surgery!

so the days pretty much all blur into one i really thought today was Friday and then i was informed it is only Wednesday lol, but anyways so they took Rayden down for a CT Scan on Monday he really does not like to be moved  he a little more internal bleeding but it was nothing huge that they could not take care of, after they got the CT scan results they tried saying they could not see what they wanted and they would like to get a MRI but i did not agree cause every time they move him they just hurt him more, they wanted the CT so bad and they got it, now figure something out and get my baby the surgery he needs to help him start to heal, the next day on Tuesday<yesterday> the surgeon came in and talked to us she said they surgery needed to be now or never and asked us if we wanted to go ahead with  the surgery or if we just wanted to "let nature take its course" WTF is that supposed to mean i thought, we definitely chose to go ahead and try the surgery even though the surgeon expressed to me multiple times how risky it would be because of how sick he was and that she did not think he would be able to survive the surgery, so we went on with the surgery cause if i am speaking bluntly i would much rather loose him in surgery trying to fix the problem then just let him go without trying. so we went and sat in a family room and waited they had to do the surgery in his room cause he was not stable enough to moved down to the ER so they turned his room into a mini ER! the family room was right next to his room so you could hear every machine beep and almost everything they were saying, it was kinda scary but the wait seemed like forever even though the surgery only took about an hour, they knocked on the door came in and sat down and told us that HE MADE IT! we were so happy to hear this, the whole time they were doing the surgery all i could think about was how i never got to hear him cry, i never got to hold him and i never even got to see him open his eyes, but now i am hopeful that i will get all of this someday maybe not soon but i have a chance now and he has a chance at life, they said right when they removed the mass and clamped the artery his blood pressure, heart rate and oxygen shot back up they said it was amazing and not expected but they were very happy. Now we just need to wait and hope his kidneys start to produce more urine cause that is how he is going to loose the edema in his skin and the liquid inside. keeping our fingers crossed that we only go up hill from here, he is such a little fighter and i am already so proud to have such a strong little fighter as my son! I love you baby boy keep fighting so you can come home with mommy!