a crazy few last day

kisses:)

my poor baby all swollen again!:(

feeding the ducks with the girls!

so we got transferred over to primary children's hospital a few days ago and when they were moving my baby boy over to the other hospital he started to hemorrhage inside of his lungs so he is very unstable again, he is on double the meds and he is extremely swollen up again it is so sad to see my little baby like this, on Friday they were supposed to do surgery on him they had it all set up but i guess the surgeon came up and said that he did not fill comfortable doing the surgery cause he did not think Rayden would make it threw the surgery, the surgery is to remove the mass in his lungs and this should solve most all of his problems they are going to go in threw his side and cut threw his rib cage and remove the mass. they say now we will just need to take it day by day and see if he can get a little better so that the surgery is not so risky for him but if he gets worse they will go in and do it right away. this is the worst waiting game of my life i hate it i just want him to have the Surgery already so he can get better even though i am so scared for him to get it i know it is the only thing that will make him have a chance and help him get better! and yesterday Saturday he was stable all day but he is on a lot more stuff to help keep him that way, i just want to hold my baby love on him and kiss him but i know that cant happen for a long time. my girls are going back to STG today with my sister i am going to miss them lots but i need to  be able to go to the hospital lots and with them here i cant really go see Rayden that often, im sad but i know  they will be in good hands.