eye surgery!

a lot has been going on i am in still in Saint  George cause they do not have any opening at the Ronald McDonald house and there is a really bad storm up in SLC right now so i don't want to drive the car up there int hat weather, and i do not have the extra money to spend on a hotel and gas for the SUV so i guess i have to wait till Sunday when the storm passes and hope that place has a room open then, even though i hate it so bad and i am so depressed here at my house it is hard to be here and not have him with me, also on top of it Chris has left for his 5 week training it sucks i hate being alone but we need the extra money so he had to go. but anyways about baby Rayden he is doing good on his new ventilator i am happy about that, but he is  having surgery on his eyes as i am typing this i am really sad i am not there with him for this surgery i know he is taken care of up there but i still wish i was there to comfort him, he is having laser surgery on his eyes cause something is not forming right i don't really understand it 100% but they say if they don't do it there is a chance he can go blind so i defiantly want to prevent that if i can! also he needs to get that tube put in his head to drain the fluid in there and they want to do that A.S.A.P but right now they cant do it cause he has an infection and if they do that surgery there is a high chance the infection could spread to his brain and we defiantly do not need that happening, so they are going to wait till his infection is under control and then put the tube in right away. they also had to give him a new feeding tube that goes threw his nose right into his intestine yesterday cause he was throwing up his feedings again, i feel so bad for him that he has to go threw all these things, i miss him so bad i am just broken i feel like i have tried to stay strong this whole time but Chris leaving just broke me. i hope my poor little man starts to get better soon and he stops having all these problems i want to bring him home so bad even though i know it wont be for a while, i just miss him and i am turning into a mess...