A few steps at a time.

hos first feeding.

well i have not written in a few days but they have pretty much been the same. He got one of his chest tubes out cause it stopped draining now only two more to go but they said when all his chest tubes are out i can hold him, i know its not going to be for a few more weeks but now at least i have something to look forward to. they have also took away one of his machines the nitric machine, that's one less machine he is on still a long ways to go but he is getting there, they say we are still not out of the woods with him but he is getting better then he was he is making steps in the right direction. also a big thing they did yesterday is they started to feed him breast milk he only gets a tiny bit every six hours cause they need to see if his body can handle it, i really hope his body does good with it cause i don't want to take any steps back. but other then these changes nothing really new he looks a lot better now, he has a lot less swelling and he has went from 9lbs to 7lbs in the last few days he still has a lot of fluid to loose but it is getting there. i really just want my baby to make i can not wait till he opens his eyes for the first time i hope i am there to see it, i don't want to miss anything. my  mom and sister are coming down today i cant wait to see my family and also for them to see how much he has changed, also i am excited my mom will be here to help with the girls cause i  have hardly got to spend any time at the hospital since we brought the girls up here i love having them here with me but it is sooooo hard to be at the hospital with Rayden. Chris is going to have to go back to saint George soon to go back to work i am going to have my dad come here and he me with the girls as long as he can handle it and then i don't know what i am going to do i really hate being up in SLC i am torn i don't know what i should do.!