His Brain.

my handsome baby boy!

this is his poor little foot but it
actually looks better then it ever has

the last few days have been a little crazy i guess i  say that in every post. lol but that's just my life right night crazy. Rayden is looking cute but he is still really sick they  did a scan of his brain and they found  2 holes in his brain, the doctor said this puts him a great risk of having motor skill disabilities ( the doc said he is not saying he is going to have them he is just informing n us that  he could. he also has a blood clot in his brain cavity, they said they are not going to do anything about it right now they are going to check it again on Monday and make sure it does not get bigger and if it does get bigger they will have to consult with surgery about putting a tube in his head to drain the clot out.  i feel like every time they do a scan they find a new problem and that's good that they are finding the problems i just really wish we could here something positive for once. the nurse also told us that the earliest she sees us going home if he does good is MAY! and thats also depending if i am willing to take him home with some of his equipment. that is so far away i dont want to wait that long, that's not till this summer that's forever away, i just hope that we are done finding problems they can treat the ones he has and he can be ok and he can do things fast and come home soon, i want to hold him it feels like the day will never come. he also has a blood clot in his artery right by his liver they do not know how they are going to treat that yet cause all the things they usually treat clots with, the doctors think will be to hard for him, and they don't want to penetrate his skin with and needles cause they dont think the meds will even get to the clot they think it will just leak right out with all his access fluid. i dont know i hope they come up with a plan today cause this is a very dangerous situation if this clot breaks loose and flouts anywhere and blocks off a main artery it could kill him instantly( doctors  words) so they dont want to take this lightly but they also dont want to do anything that is going to cause him a lot more problems, everything is so up and down all the time. i just want him  to  be ok and come home with me. i love him so much.